July 22–July 23, 2018
Emotional tears come and go, come and go
You are sweet as sugar.
My heart
Why do you like me? Why me? How is this real life?
I felt connected to you, not knowing that you wanted to connect with me
I wonder how long you’ve felt this way
I’ll see you again soon.
You are sugar. You sprinkle me with sweetness.
I am drenched in joy, bathing in an unfamiliar but comfortable happiness.
Yesterday was a dream, a sugar cube in my tea, the sugar cane that now lives in my Hawaii.
I think of all our previous interactions, how I didn’t know then what I know now, how I didn’t know then that I would ever know what I know now
It’s so interesting how new information can expand your perspective on past experiences, experiences that have lived their lives and now are being reborn
It felt like middle school, like being chaperoned,
the awkwardness, the innocence, unsure of what to say,
unsure of what to do, how to act, how much to show.
I don’t mean this in a negative way; I know that’s how one would likely interpret this, but I don’t mean it like that. I never experienced being 13 like the others. I never felt like them when I was with them. I couldn’t relate to them or understand them. Such peculiar creatures. I might be a late bloomer in this regard like many others, but I never experienced blooming like this before, so it held the same sparkle that newness does, the unfamiliarity so treasured, that shines so bright, that lights the way. It wasn’t time then, but now isn’t then. It was different than it would have been, but what it could have been is never what it was supposed to be.
My heart is full.
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I shed tears,
my heart swells, beating with uncertain comfort,
I feel propelled.
May you always find a café in the circus. 🎡☕️🍵🎢🎠
Yours truly, 👖– s
😊😭🐈🐢🌺🌷🌸🌼🌹🌻🎡🎢🎠💘💝💖💓💗💞💕🎵🎶♍️👫♋️🍭🍬❤️
The evening before
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The mid-morning after
P.S.
As you saw in my last post, I am quite fond of the sky. I’ve been thinking about it for a while now, and I decided to start an Instagram account dedicated to it. I tend to take a lot of pictures of the sky, and I think that incorporating this joy of mine into my blog—showcasing it in all its loveliness and glory—is a perfect addition to this component of my life.🌅🌄
Here’s a link to it: https://www.instagram.com/all_we.see_is.sky_for.forever/
🔵The sky is forever.🔵
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Contact me at: giovannaaaa2018@gmail.com
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